OK, need an upswing...

I need to get off my ass and start doing something pro-active.

Not that I am lazy, but right now, what I am currently doing, isn't working.

I almost killed my dog last night because I was stupid and put something on top of my washer, in his "area". It fell off and hit (luckily) only his paw, but it broke his toe. That stupid error wasn't just bad for him, but cost us money we didn't have to fix it... and it isn't even fixed.

I feel like screaming.

I am getting depressed and when that happens, I want to do nothing. I have orders that have to go out. I need them out in less than a week. I am trying, but it is hard. I would rather do nothing.

I am better than I was though. I will keep on trying.

I have no idea what to do about the other things. I can't really advertise for more kids until I move, because... well, I am moving and I don't want people to feel sucked into this house, when I won't be staying here.

I need a break.

Some lady called about 5 kids the other day. I can't do five kids. Even though 5 kids would more than pay the bills.

Sigh.

My mind is working over time. I feel like I can't relax until the crisis is over, and lately it is never ending.

:(