Quiet... and Peace?

My friend Amy took Anya and Tristy for the night. It is quiet with just Ian-Pie and myself here, until Shawn gets here, I suppose. I really need to know what I want to do.... I can't make any drastic decisions... so I am doing nothing really... I have several oppertunities... and I want to do them all.

1. Photography. Which I will do either way, but it is a matter how quickly I want to get myself and how deep...

2. I can apprentice and cut hair. Which would be nice. I can wear what I want and do something vastly different and creative. I won't be lacking with that.

3. Dig into my soap business deeper. Or keep it at the hobby level. Probably will do that. It pays for itself and makes me a bit of money, right now I need a bit more money, so for the short term, I will probably still do this.

4. Continue with child care. I love kids. But I have been doing this for a long time now. And with Emerald gone, I feel like it doesn't matter anymore. Either way, I can continue to watch kids on some level until I decide where I want to go.

I just need a change... or do I? I guess I don't need a change as much as I just need my baby back.

I miss her.