Sparkling Referee.

Me reffing with Jacktown

So I did it.  I quit my old league.  I completely stopped going to derby for 3 months.  Truth be told, my foot was bothering me.  So I decided after working my ass off helping a bout with no recognition... well, I did get an email telling how much I sucked, I wasn't part of the team, and how I was a joke.  I quit.  They owe me money, but I don't care.  My sanity is worth way more.  We gave the problem her own league.  Enjoy. 

Anyway, I refereed a game the other day.  That was fun.  Much more interesting than just plain watching... and even more fun than NSOing.  So I plan to keep doing this as well as skating with the new league I joined.  I had to buy a dress from a costume shop because the men's ref clothes just fit like crap.  Like I had a bag around me.  Hopefully, I can find something that moves and is kind of flattering at the same time.  I like to be comfortable when I skate. 

I watched some of the girls on this new league.  Mostly everyone has been skating derby for less time than I have.  That certainly doesn't make me better.  It does however, put my head in a different spot when we are playing together.  And just playing together with a group of girls you don't know is hard.

I have severe anxiety regarding meeting new people and trying new things.  I am proud to say that I don't let that stop me most of the time.  I continue to try.  I joined derby, I went to nursing school, I take a deep breath and I try new things.  I am not the greatest at anything.  In fact, I excel at nearly nothing.  I don't care.  For me the challenge isn't to excel.  The challenge is just to get out there and live.  And if you ask the majority of people I know... they see me doing that.  I have that.