Why the hell can't I just feel happy?? For some reason, I let one stupid thing... and usually it is either just a little nagging something in my head... or maybe something real, but not my problem... or sometimes it is my problem, but there is literally nothing more than I can do about it that I am not already doing.
I have completely changed things for myself. I got into nursing school. I kicked out Shawn, and found someone that makes me happy. The kids are doing better.
Too bad my love affair with self doubt and self imposed depression and anxiety will kill off anything good. I hate that I am so insecure. I have a lot to offer, but just think that everyone is better off not hearing anything from me. I just said today... "no one really notices if I stop talking anyway."
It is probably just hormones. But this is no way to live... I'm even tired of the "depressed theme".
2 comments:
Well i notice if you quit talking. I have checked your blog a lot of times.
You are doing so much, Kim, it can't be easy. I am amazed.
Take care of yourself and i hope you will go easier on yourself.
Carol MN
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