The end of the year... is near...

Ahhh nothing changes. I have been avoiding everything again, just this time of the year, I guess. As soon as thing settle down a little I hope to be in the swing of my life again.

I had a daycare mom stop coming. She gave me notice, but she was one of the payers. She was respectful, and I am sad that she is going. She got a new job, and is moving. :(

Now I know I have mentioned these other three that have been coming. Seems that they were added to my file. And now they are off. The mom is working a cash job, and turned in the stuff, but still we hear nothing about the kids being put onto the daycare subsidy so the mom can work. I am just hoping this rectifies soon. I really want to watch these kids. I need the money (who doesn't... ) and I am really sick and tired of having to chase the state for the cash. They recently decided that parents can only get 90 hours instead of a 100 every two weeks. That is down from 120 they could get just 2 years ago. Put the cost back onto the parents who are making $8/hour. Good idea. But I have to make money too, so I have to charge the parents for it.

Then there has been the whole Christmas Eve fiasco in our family. Usually on Christmas Eve we go to my Aunt's house. My mom has 10 siblings, they don't all come, because some live out of state, but it is an annual get together, that the family looks forward too. Everyone there smokes aside from me, but I can get past it, it is only one night a year. We don't get home until 2 am or later usually, but we all have such fun.

So my Aunt tells us this summer that they aren't doing Christmas. Fine. I say, I will do it at my house. They are going to go to Florida this year. Well, the holiday comes around. We plan, we paint, we clean, we call. People say they are coming. We call to get the Santa Suit from my Aunt...and she tells me that they aren't going to go to Florida after all. My other Aunt and this Aunt have had some sort of falling out... and now 2 other families aren't coming to my house, but rather they are doing their own thing. Whatever. My Aunt says she will come and all that.

Christmas Eve comes and no one shows up. Well, I shouldn't say that. My sisters and 1 of my brothers come here. My mil and fil and my bil's family come. Some of my sister's friends come. One of the daycare moms comes over. But none of my mom's family that preempted me doing Christmas Eve here. I have piles of food that I can't use and will be wasted.

Not even a phone call to tell me to Fuck Off. Nothing.

So now, next year, I don't know what is going on. Are we starting a new tradition? Are we going back to the same? I didn't mind that I could breathe the next day. I had a good time regardless of whether it was the same or not. I just don't do well with change, and I want people to be happy and together... but not at the cost of my sanity.