I have no idea why I am writing...

I just feel the need to blab on like an idiot.

I hate how money is so necessary. I mean, I am busting my ass, and I feel like I am never gaining anything.

Daycare kids started, ONE of the three got put onto the case. So I can bill for one. I told the mom on Monday that I couldn't watch them until they were all on there. I just can't be stressing myself out for nothing.

I hired someone to help me, but it wasn't working out because she couldn't come when I needed her. I needed help during the evening and getting one of the kids off the bus. I also needed her to be here on Wednesdays so Shawn could go to work. He isn't going to work, so it seems extremely pointless to have her here, and paying for two people to be here, when Shawn (although not my first choice for a care giver) will suffice.

Sigh.

I have been sleeping on the couch for the last month, because it is the only place I can sleep with my back hurting when I wake up.

The toilet has overflowed into my bedroom twice in a week...

Myself and the kids have all been sick, and I have to take Janai back again...

Back to the money issues. Money isn't important... I don't want a lot of money... I want enough money to meet my current needs... which aren't over the top. I have literally cut out anything we didn't need, and honestly... if we weren't getting food stamps right now... we would have nothing.

So I could use some mojo that these kids get put on my online case. I know they are eligible, I just need this resolved so I can have enough money to pay my bills. That is all I want. So I can concentrate on mothering, and school... and daycare.