Wow... what a week.

My sister delivered her baby preterm. We found out today the strain of bacteria she had, and it was listeria. Which totally sucks. He was a big healthy 26 week fetus, and in a matter of hours, he was dead, she had to deliver him, because he was so big, and she was so far along. My heart just breaks for her and her husband.

I have found that despite my having lived through losing my own child, I am of no help to her. She has to go through this herself. I can't shelter her, and worse yet, I can barely deal with it. I was emotionally invested in her pregnancy. We both were pregnant at the same time, I helped her chart... I was the first person she told, even before her dh. I am useless to her, until I can find a way to deal with all my feelings about this.

Curtis Finian Collison was born Sept 21st, 2007 at 5:00 am. He was 2lbs and 6 oz, and 14.5 inches long. He looked just like his dad. My sister Keri handled herself in labor like a champ. Even with her fever and being sick, she did well, and had him naturally, just as she had planned.

I am glad that they caught the infection before it hurt Keri further. I could be grieving my sister, as well as my nephew and that would have just been the worse thing ever.