While I was on my way home from school today, I was looking down the road. I noticed that because I drive this way all the time, I never look far ahead anymore. Only when I am in unfamiliar territory do I really look ahead, or even at the scenery as it goes by. I thought of how when you are looking ahead it looks like you might be headed somewhere else. Somewhere new, but as you get to it, it is still the same place. Nothing has changed.
I was thinking of how my life is like that. I drive this same road every day. I wake up and do the same things, I look ahead, but it always seems to same, so I stopped looking past a certain point. I stopped looking at the things around me... in my life. My friends, how I define myself, and have continued to make the same assumptions that I did 6 months ago.
But things aren't the same, and they don't have to be the same at any given moment. I can choose to change how I look at it. I can decide that I am going to live my life to be in the future, instead of just getting by each day. I want to see my kids grow up, and become adults, I WANT to support them the way that I wish that I had been supported the past couple of years. My future isn't what it was. It might not even be what I thought it was going to be. Any day something could change. It might be something I have no control over, like a brain tumor, or it could be just because I looked ahead and didn't like where I was going. I can even mull over the similarities of where I am going and how it looks like some place else I have been. It is all mine, this life.
1 comment:
BRaVO..totally clapping =)
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