The kids...

I just love listening to Anya and Pie discuss their day. I love listening to Anya read bedtime stories to Pie. It reminds me of when I was little and used to read to my sisters.

Pie and Janai started pre-school today. Pie screamed his little head off until after I left. I guess he did eventually stop and had a great time, and is excited to go back tomorrow. Thankfully, he is a roll-with-the-punches kind of kid.

Janai ran off right away, and Pie was screaming so badly, I didn't have a chance to tell her goodbye. So when I showed up to pick them up, she look relieved to see me, and screamed "mommy!" and ran over. She is also excited to go back and hopefuly will feel more at ease tomorrow, because she knows I will come back to get her.

Eliza has a bad runny problem... She fell asleep at 7 and has remained sleeping the whole night, and took a nap this afternoon. I hope it isn't anything that sticks with her.

Shawn didn't get the job.

He had to take a psychological profiling test, and it said he was ill suited for the job. I should have gave him one of those before we got married.

"Sorry Honey, you failed your psychological profile, you are ill suited to be a husband and a father..."

Sigh.

Carry on.

Today is the first day of school.

Anya started first grade today. I dropped her to school, took a picture of her at her table, and then left, holding back tears. Not for what you think though. I am sure the other parents thought I was just a new mom crying because her baby was going to school. But the reality is that I was upset about my baby NOT going to school. Not starting high school this morning. Not getting into fights with me...

My dead kid... the ultimate rip off for her and me.

What can one do though? Sigh. Next week when Pie and Janai start head start, should be easier. Today, while I put on my brave face, I will be licking my wounds. That is what it feels like. I need some one to help take care of me for few hours.