I. Just. Can't. Relax.

Ever. I always feel like I am "on". I am pretty sure that my back problems, my inability to lose weight, lack of libido and whatever else, is 100% contributed to stress.

I need to find a way to unwind. It isn't easy, because I am worrying about a lot of things.

Money (my #1 gripe). I know people always say that money doesn't buy happiness. Nope, it certainly doesn't. But when you don't have enough to take care of your kids, the lack of it, causes stress.

Waiting. I applied to the nursing program at my school. The final step in getting in. My pre-requisite courses are done, and there is nothing to do but wait for them to get back to me. They say they will tell us no later that August 1st.

Housing. Honestly, if the guy who owns this house would just leave me along, I would just stay here even though the cost is high. As it is, our lease is up in February. He is working hard to get us to mortgage and this house is worth $35K less than it was two years ago. But because we signed into a rent to own type of thing, he feels that is what he can squeeze out of us. I think not. But trying to find something more suitable isn't as easy as it sounds. At this point, it would better for us to find something at this same price and have a much larger house, than to try to find something decent that is cheaper... LOL

Insurance. Certainly life would be better if I could get to the doctor, but with no insurance, I have to wait until something is wrong...

I have been getting exercise, been trying to breathe, but I am just feeling overwhelmed.

I am even applying for a job at comcast, so I can try to have enough money and lessen my dependency on certain individuals. LOL

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The kids are good. I am OK. Just waiting to see if I am accepted into the core program for nursing at my school.

I spent 3 days looking for my hearing aids and found them finally... and found that they are broken. We have no insurance... and I just don't know what to do about it. Medicaid will only cover the expenses, after I spend $1100. LOL Excellent.